The photo below is my Mum, 98 years ) she loves to share her thoughts on Change. How times have changed. As I sit and listen to her over dinner one night, I realize she has probably seen more change in her lifetime than I ever will. For example; phones. They had a wall, hand cranked early version, with a party line. A lot of younger folks would ask what is a party line….to them it’s a 3 way call! Haha. Or let’s talk computers! My folks have no idea how to use one. Now the old fashion strike key typewriter, then you're talking their language.
Change happens to everyone; it’s part of life. How we decide to handle change is a personal decision. In most ways, I will embrace change! I love to mix it up. Move the furniture…change. Paint a room….change. Try a new recipe…change. Now those are simple. However, ask me to change my life……hit the brakes! Change my lifestyle, now that is another story all together! I had a change moment in the ER a few weeks ago. I went to the ER because a few days earlier I woke to the right side of my face numb. When I looked in the mirror, I was surpirsed to see my face was droopy. Since my Mum was staying with me, I couldn’t get to the ER for a few days. When I arrived there, I was tabled a “stroke patient”! ‘Yikes’, I thought, ‘are they talking about me?’ Didn’t take long after they took my BP to realize…..YES….they were talking about me! Ding Ding…..small alarm went off.
After being transferred to a room. They hook you up to ekg, heart monitor and off we started the battery of tests. After a few hours of testing it was determined it wa not a stroke but rather Bell’s Palsy. Ding Ding…..another small alarm went off.
It was only 3 weeks before after many tests and a bone marrow biopsy; my oncologist delivered the news……Leukemia. I have had several bouts with cancer from stage IV sarcoma to stage IV Non Hodgkins Lymphonma. This was a blow……yet again.
It was while laying in the ER bed that I realized, Change was in the air. My life, my world was shifting. There in sterile atmosphere of the hospital the knowing began. Knowing that my life and goals needed to be adjusted. A paradigm shift, of all I had strived for and sacrificed for was about to happen. Rather like the stillness, erie calm before a tornado comes roaring towerds you. You feel it, deep inside, just before the silence is shattered with sound like that of a train. If you haven’t saught out shelter, it’s too late. That’s what I felt. I was exposed to the storm, no shelter in sight. It was than I knew. My love and passion for standard poodles was about to change. Maybe not the love or passion, more the litters.
I have been so blessed by my friends and my poodle families over the years. As I pondered this big change in my life; I realized it didn’t have to end. What I realized is I need a special person to hand over the reigns and continue the legacy that I started. I have that special person already in my life and who has my poodles!
I won’t do a big reveal yet…..I still have another year of breedings planned for 2022-2023.
I am excited to mentor help to develop another branch of the Winters Wind family. The continuum will still move forward. It’s a work in progress…..with progress comes change. Yes, the wind is pick up.
More details will follow in this blog. So keep checking this dial and stay tuned!
